Hey guys! Welcome back. I hope you are enjoying your holiday weekend. Today is Sunday which means I am back to recap my week for you and boy was it quite the week. I think this is probably the first weekly recap that I haven’t been excited to share at all. But in my efforts to be completely open and transparent with you guys I feel it is important to share my not so perfect times as well as when things are going really well for me. As much as I try to be positive and motivating, I think sometimes the best inspiration can be found in someone sharing their struggles. So I am here to share my not so great week with you.
As most of you know these past few months have been a struggle for me, but these past few weeks have proven to be more difficult than I ever could have imagined. When I moved I was going into it blindly because I didn’t really have any guidance. I didn’t know all the questions I needed to ask or all the things I needed to be prepared for, so when I got here I got hit hard with a lot of things that I wasn’t ready for. I didn’t really know what was coming and because of that I have really struggled. This past week has been the most difficult one of all and I want you to know if you are struggling that you are not alone.
I’m going to be completely honest with you about two very real things. The first is that although I wish the circumstances were different, they are not. I don’t have all the answers. I came into this very blindly and unprepared. I wish I could go back and give myself some advice, but I can’t. So if you can take anything from this, I hope it helps. I moved thinking I was fully prepared and had covered all the expenses that I needed, but the apartment that I moved into failed to inform me of two major costs that I was not prepared for coming into it. And having never moved like this before, I never even thought about it.
And that leads me to the second thing I need to share. But before I share it I want you to know that I am sharing this out of transparency and to show that things aren’t always great. I will be honest and say that the thought of being this vulnerable with you right now is scary, but I am sharing because I know I am not alone. I know I am not the only one struggling with this right now, so if you are also going through this I want you to know that we are in this together. Also, I think it is really important that I share as much as I can with you guys even when things aren’t going so great in my life. So here it goes.
I’m all tapped out. I have not money. I have no food. I have very little energy to keep going. Not starting my job until mid-September has caused more problems than I initially anticipated and that is in big part due to the two unexpected expenses that I wasn’t prepared for. So I’m completely out. I ran out of money and I ran out of food. I don’t fully know what I’m going to do from this point, but I am working endlessly doing little things to make some extra money. Don’t worry. It’s all safe and it’s all legal. But it’s hard. And I’m really struggling right now. All that I ask of you is to do the thing you always do and fill my comments with positivity. Because as much as I love being positive for you, sometimes I need some back.
I know that these struggles are only temporary and that definitely keeps me going, but I really needed to be honest with you guys about how my week has gone and probably what next week will be like as well. I’m doing the best I can, but bear with me as things might be a little off this coming week. I know things will get better, but right now I feel like I just can’t keep my head above water. I appreciate each one of you and I have great faith that things will work out. I appreciate your patience and understanding and I try to get back on my feet and move forward through these trying times.
If you are also struggling right now, please know that you are not alone. I’m going through it too. And so are so many other people. But there is so much to look forward to and to keep fighting for, so don’t give up. I’m definitely struggling right now, financially and with hunger, but I know it will work out. So have faith and just keep going. I promise we can get through this. Thank you so much for stopping by! I hope you enjoyed this. Please like it if you did. Leave some positivity in the comments if you can. It would be greatly appreciated. Don’t forget to follow before you leave if you have not already and I hope to see you next time!
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