Hey guys! Welcome back. So I really wanted to share with you guys what has been going on and I figured a life update would be the best way to do that. This week has been really strange and has honestly been one of the longest weeks of my life. So much has happened, but at the same time, nothing at all has happened. I’m going to try to share as much as I can, but there are some things that I can’t really give details on, especially right now. But I am going to try to share as much as I can and just update you on everything.
So we will just start with the biggest thing and what has kind of caused all of this. I haven’t worked since Monday. I can’t give too much information, mostly because I don’t really know what happened myself, but we shut down Monday afternoon and we haven’t been back since. So for the past five days I haven’t worked. I’m not going to pretend like I haven’t enjoyed every minute of it, especially since we did get paid for it, but it’s kind of stressful sitting around because you might go back to work. We still haven’t technically gone back to work. Maybe tomorrow, but I’m off tomorrow so maybe by Sunday I will be working again. No one really knows though.
But because of that I have had a lot of time this week to think about things and really do a lot of reflecting. I mean I do that anyway, but this time it was pretty much uninterrupted. I mean I haven’t had five days off since last summer and so much has happened since then. But as I was thinking this week I started thinking about where life has led me and how grateful I am to have ended up here. I had dinner with a friend last night and I think it was the first time in a very long time where I felt completely at peace.
My mental health comes and goes in waves and sometimes I really struggle. I struggle with feeling like I’m not good enough or that I somehow just got lucky. But the truth is I don’t think that’s how this works. I think I was meant to end up here and I was meant to spend my time doing what I’m doing right now. This is by no means where my journey ends and the story isn’t over yet, but as I thought this week about where I am right now I found myself feeling really proud. Proud that I didn’t give up. Proud that I made it as far as I did.
I started graduate school at the end of April and life has been so chaotic since then that I never really had a moment to think “Oh crap this is really happening.” I never had a moment to really celebrate the fact that I was doing something most people would have never thought imaginable. And once I had that moment my perspective on so many things changed. I realized that even though things get hard sometimes, I really have come so far. I have made it farther than I ever thought imaginable in such a short amount of time. And things just continue to get better as life goes on, so I really can’t complain.
And as I sit thinking about the rest of this year and next year I get really excited about everything. From finishing my master’s degree to moving to even new relationships, I am so excited to see what the next year holds for me. This last year has brought me so much more than I ever thought possible and I just feel so overwhelmed with gratitude. I still struggle and I find myself feeling sad sometimes because there are some things that I am missing. But I remind myself that I have so much more going for me than things I don’t have going for me, so overall I’m pretty fortunate.
But that is my update. It’s been a pretty crazy week and of course I will be sharing other things I did this week later this weekend. Thank you so much for stopping by! I really hope you enjoyed this. Please like it if you did. Let me know in the comments what other posts you want to see from me coming up. Don’t forget to follow before you leave if you have not already and I hope to see you next time!